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Title: Vindicated Author: Muggleish Rating: T Character(s): Song Theme: If Only… Author's Notes: First in a four part series.  This one has mature themes.  Just letting the youngins know.                                                                                                                                                 “If only, if only," the woodpecker sighs…”-                                                                                                 Louis Sachar The road was long, windy, and rocky.  Song had often suggested to her older patience not to walk such a long path, but knew very well it was the only safe way back to their village.  She had spent her morning gathering supplies from the forest, and was now making her way down the very same one.  The summer was drawing to a close, and the troops had been coming in mass droves.  There is always work to be done. She smiled a warily as the village came into site just ahead.  It would be nice to take a little rest.  Her head turned to right when a noise caught her attention-a groan that came from the nearby clearing. She worked quickly and instinctively.   Her feet followed as her ears lead the way, but she froze just at the edge. Her eyes widen and full took in the sight before her.  Two beautiful nude bodies moved together in a dance that she didn’t understand.  Emotion poured out of them that hit her and sent a shiver down her spine.  Another feeling too… Regret crept into her belly and made her sick.   “If only”, she thought…  But there is always work to be done.

WAR.


There is a knock at the door.
She opens it and stares.
The man is dressed up real nice.
He hands her a letter and says words.

She stares again.
The words he says don’t make since.
They slur and stutter.
She closes the door.

A baby cries out.
She turns and walks to the nursery.
Her eyes take in a beautiful sight.
A blue-eyed baby girl, that looks just like him.


Those same eyes take no joy.
Instead, they are cold and empty of feeling.
The little girl cries out again for Mama.
Tear drops fall and splatter on the blue crib sheets.

Hands once so warm, reach out in cold lifelessness.
They reach for a pretty lace pillow made by Grandmother.
Softly, they lay it over that face of innocence.
The cries for Mama cease.

It was an adjustment for me when I first moved here. The houses are so close together that it is a little awkward at times. Being for the country our Neighbors either live up the road or the ones that happen to live next door -we knew well. In fact, two of those neighbors for most of my childhood were my Great Grandparents and my adopted Granny. :) However, Here I know very little about my Neighbors, and I am a very ummm... Curious person so I often wonder about them. Like the man that insists on practicing his fishing in the street. I wonder if he sees the hard black road as a lake full of fish. I can say that I never cared for fishing, but I might go for his kind. Catching a brand new car does seem like fun!

Moving right along. I have finished my Christmas shopping! Very happy to see that over with. Though I love to shop for someone other than myself. My mother is my favorite person to shop for. They always have her size! It can be very frustrating to shop when you are plus-sized and tall. So shopping for a person who is 5'3 and maybe 95 pounds is very very relaxing. I got her two knew cute tops. She's only 36 so she can pull off the younger look and I even got her one with a high waist so she looks curvier. You're welcome Mom. ;D I got the boyfriend a new outfit and Lara Croft for the Wii. I am now also baking him a cake. Even if he claims he wants to stop eating sweets.


I have been baking up storm the past two weeks. I now plan to spend my Sunday making cookies and Candy to give as gifts for my Boyfriend's sweetheart family I love them and they make me feel not so far from my own family when I am with them. In fact, Sunday was my 21st birthday. They had a party for me. It was one of the best birthdays I have had in some time. I love them like they were my own.

I LIVE!!! ~cough~
We ended up being on the good side of the storm so we didn't get to much damage.
We lost a few big trees limbs and the roof of our storage building Our house was just fine by the grace of God. We just now got lights a few hours ago after four days. No lights, no water, and our phone was on/off all day. The no lights was the worst part about it all because with no AC and 100 degree temps. it got a wee bit hot. So I am so happy to be back in the AC. I also don't have classes the rest of the week (I've been out all week) and start back Monday.

Lord be with all those without lights.
Lord be with me so I don't kill my family.

Kristina

Well, Rita is hitting the cost tomorrow. (I am 3 hours from there. About 175 or 200 miles) We are getting ready now. Grams is gathering candles, and will be getting batteries when she goes into to town. Gramps is up town getting gas. Mom has jugs to put water in. All in all we will be fine. But please pray for all the people in Huston and Galveston. I have no idea when I'll be on again.

After six hours of Game play I beat Silent Hill 3 again. 0.o
Now I have to go and get the different endings. ~sigh~

Well I got class at 8:00 A.M. ¬__¬

So goodnight.

After many hours of hard hard work. My new layout theme is done. It is Heather from Silent Hill 3. It looks spiffy I think but holy cow it took forver. ~dies~

Ps. What ya think about?

One of my favorite poems that I have ever written,  First thing I ever had published.  

Reflections in a Broken Mirror . . .

I look out into the gloom of this place
Then I look into the reflection of my own face
I see me, but not me
Just a million or more of what I must be

More in the mission than I want to recall
I feel in me, that I'm nothing at all
Temptation is great upon my breast
This is the truth of my deadly quest
I feel the darkness on this land
I mustn't give up my hand
Though my fear is multiplied and pushes me downside
I could never hide, too much pride
I looked down into the looking glass
My heart shutters at the thought of the tasks
The reflection remains and I stare . . .
These reflection of a broken mirror and I feel that I don't care</FONT

;.; Do I have,"Fall in Love with me?", written all over my face or something?? X-D
I get stalked in Hot Topic when guys are working. Waiters stare and try to flirt. Boys in my old High school seemed to have loved me. Robbie, Jamie, Steven, Jerrod. ;_; Well maybe not LOVE but lust like thing. ahhhh. Oh, Boy. The looks I get at Anime Cons.... It is not that it is not flattering and what not... I just don't understand the attraction to me.

haha. What brought this on was the waiter we had today at Golden Corral. Everyone one kept screaming "He likes you!!". Okay... Just because a person pays more attention to one person... Oh hell. He was flirting with me. Gah, I'm a horrible flirt to. I just make a big dork out of myself. Yes, He paid all his attention on me and KEPT staring. Ashley caught him at it. Just argh.. Why?? I mean.... I'm ugly with a capital U! My personality is ehhhhhhhh.... I'm very SHY. I make an asshat out of myself. Lol, But again I'm good for a laugh.

Oh... My Mother left my number with the tip. Umm. I could have left my OWN damn name and number. I can write you know. I told her that and she made fun of my hand writing. Argggggggghhhhhhhhhh. My handwriting is very boyish... But you CAN read it. Gah. Man. My life is weird.

yay! I am the most random person... But the other night I was reading Volume 2 of Chobits and I found a poem I wrote in it.

( yay!! For bad poetry! CLICK CLICK!! )

I want it to be next summer.
I'm ready to go to Ireland. ~pouts~

Just a list of my Ranma 1/2 fanfiction ideas.
Gotta write them down before I forget.  X-D

( Fanfics )

ohhhh, I think I like making Colorbars a little to much. X-D
Well I only made two today... But I was wondering caue I'll have free time this week. Do any of you have a request for a Colorbar?? Um? I'll make you whatever you like! =^^= If you would like an example of my work. Just look at my userinfo. I made the Last Unicorn and Ranma/Akane ones. :D

Just leave me a comment of what you want.. Pictures would be good too.